True Friendship!!

So I sometimes fear opening up because I am afraid people will walk away from a friendship!  That is one of my greatest fears in the world.  But I have some amazing friends in my life!!!  You know who you are.  Even in my stupid moments they are there to listen and encourage.  No matter what I am doing with them I can laugh even when I feel like crying.  I feel I have taken them for granite sometimes not told them how wonderful they are.  So do my amazing Sister in Christ I love you more than I could ever tell you!!!!!!!

Manic Man Moment

Where to start?  Umm..Well lets see I had a slight breakdown.  LOL I don't know if anyone has felt this...Have you ever had one of those moments when you let yourself kinda crush on someone.  Not like they are the only one you think is cute or neat, but one that if they did actually ask you out that you would go just to see where it might go.  I hope you are following me!!  : ) Well anyway your sitting there thinking If he asks me out I would go then the next sentence out of his mouth is asking about one of your really good friends and if she is dating anyone!!!  Really!!!!  It makes a bunch of insecure feelings come up like what the heck is wrong with me.  I am so tired of being overlooked.  Don't get me wrong, it is not my friends fault for being so such a pretty and interesting person.  But I am so tired of being "just one of the guys!"  Or "oh that is just my friend Stef."  Or " We are just way too good of friends to date!"  AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! It is madness. So this is what led to my Manic Man Moment and my slight breakdown.  I know that God is in control and that all of these guys that say this aren't the guys God has for me but it doesn't take the pain and frustration away.  Don't worry I have recovered somewhat!  lol :) But is really hard being older and still single.  So I just thought I would share.  I am trying to be patient and wait on the right guy but it isn't always pleasant or easy!  : ) Thanks for letting me vent!

First Blog!!

So two of my best friends have blogs, so I thought I would join them!!  : )
Why I named my blog Stef-isms 101....Well mainly because I make up words sometimes.  LOL Ok a lot of times.  I am not a very good speller so you will have to bare with me on this adventure!!  I am kinda excited to do this and really nervous at the same time!  So I will come back and leave an actual blog later.  I really need to get in bed. Church is tomorrow and I can't wait!